Tonight Neal is over watching the All Blacks play Australia. The score is 26 - 12 to us with 2minutes to go. I have to confess I haven't been paying any attention to it. I've been putting our budget onto Excel. Thanks to Rach, I now know how to work it. Its actually fun to do it using such an easy software. We have finally been able to sort out all the fluff with WINZ. Which means I can finally work our budget out. Now its just up to us to stick with it! We're not so good at that part! I'm glad to say that we're able to have our pocket money back, which is excellant seen as though I've already spent mine this week! I went to a scrapbook night with Mum Smith and Sue Band. Sue sells Creative Memories now, which I think is better than tupperware. With scrapbooking you use what you buy and need to get more. Tupperware has this wonderful lifetime guarantee! You can have only so much tupperware! And Sue is much more passionate about scrapbooking, and got some really creative ideas. So anyway, last night I've ordered some stickers.
Nothing else really happening for us. Aimee starts attending full school days from monday on. And her best mate Emma is starting in a couple of weeks too. They're not in the same class but I don't think that will dampen anything. Emma is a very outgoing little girl. Aimee is going to Emma's 5th party tomorrow. She wrapped up the gift with a lot of sellotape and I'm hoping Emma will be able to open the card with all the tape on that as well!

On a more serious note. I have talked with my neurologist and she has raised my meds again. Apparently I do have a bit of room to move within the safe levels of the Lamictal. Unfortunately we won't be able to tell if its made any difference until a few weeks. In the mean time I am still not allowed to ride my beautiful bike and of course drive. I am in constant unrest not knowing if I'm going to have a seizure in the next few hours. This is more stressful than anything else we are experiencing at present. I haven't really talked to Terry about how he feels about all this. I know he is worried about me. There's not anything that he can do though. Its funny in an odd sort of way. The health professionals tell me not to stress as this can cause a seizure, but now I'm stressed about having a seizure! I'm not very confident at the moment. I only shower when Terry is home. I don't want to go anywhere unless I'm with someone who already knows about my epilepsy. I dread the thought of having a generalised seizure in a public place. Apparently the body can lose control of the bladder/bowel when having a seizure. Thank the good Lord that that hasn't happened to me.

Well I'd better sign off. I'm tired and its nearly 10pm. I better get this bag o' bones of to bed!

Car troubles

Well our day trip to Hanmer Springs didn't eventuate. We went to church on the Sunday and when we came out our car wouldn't start. It wasn't a flat battery, we thought it might have been because it was freezing cold that morning. So we walked home intending to go back and try it later. Later came and the car still didn't start. Terry & Kevin ended up towing it to Kevin's and then on Monday morning towing it to the auto electrician. It ended up something to do with the fuel pump or something like that.
Anyway all this meant that we couldn't go on our day trip. Terry went for a game of golf in the afternoon and I took the girls and Jess to the movie Shrek. We went to our local cinema and it was great because it wasn't crowded and the sofa's are so comfy! I enjoyed this Shrek, I wasn't too fussed on the 2nd one.
I had another seizure last night. I'm fine today, just feel a bit sick and headachey. I've been in touch with my neurologist and we're in the beginnings of adding to my current medication. I'll keep you up to date with what comes.
Aimee starts full days at school next week. She's settled in so well. Her best mate Emma is up to her school visits now so the two of them are just about inseperable. Their in different classrooms but I don't think that will be a barrier for them.
Well I'd better get on with stuff. Got a pile of washing to sort and vacuuming to finish. I'm starting to get use to the days without Aimee now. Although I still sit and wonder what I could do, it's so quiet. We have Parent/teacher conferences next week. I find them a bit of a pain in the way that I know the girls are doing well and it is cold and dark in the evenings to go and meet teachers. But I do see the need for them as well. Now I'm just waffling! Catch you all next time.

Another one rocks the boat.

Hi everyone, hope all are well. Its thursday today and I've had enough of this week - bring on the weekend!! Tuesday morning I woke up to rain. I had a doctors appointment for me and Em. I phoned Daphne for a ride to the doc. She was kind enough to be able to help me. I jumped in the shower with a really strange feeling. Not sure how to explain it, just had a thought that I could have a seizure today. I got out and I remember drying myself, having another thought about how embarrassing it would be to have a seizure when not dressed!! Then I had one. Not that I knew I was having one, just piecing things together afterwards. All I remember is feeling really sick and not understanding why. Apparently I phoned my friend Rosalie a couple of times, she figured something was up when I kept hanging up on her! I had asked her to come get me to take me to the doctor, not remembering I'd phoned Daphne! Apparently I'd phoned Terry as well! Doctor has written a letter to my neurologist for an appointment. We found out my next planned appointment wasn't till November 08. Think I need to see her before then.
Hence I am not allowed to ride my bike again. At least not on the road, thought I might go riding around the school. Wednesday night I found a large bump on my head and a bruise on my back. Not sure what from. I must have fallen in the bathroom, when I came out of the seizure I found myself struggling to get my trackpants on! Bit like Terry when we had SJ, very late night having her at about 2am. By the time Terry got home he was exhausted, in the morning he couldn't work out how to put his pants on and had to phone his Mum!
Back to tuesday: I hung out with Rach till Terry could get home. When he got there Rosalie turned up to take SJ & Aimee to play. Emily ended up getting a migraine and so me and her jumped in my bed and slept for a couple of hours.

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Yesterday (Wednesday), I had to go to the dentist. Big hole in my tooth, big pain too. He told me I could get a root canal and filling for $1100 or take the tooth out and pay $230. Guess which one I chose!! Yep, lost another tooth. So I'm still exhausted today as it takes a couple days to bounce back from a generalised seizure, especially when I had a long absence after it as well. Plus the tooth thing! Much to say I think I'm within my rights to have a doze on the couch today.
We're settled into the house now, apart from hanging up the pictures, the laundry has been finished enough to be usable, we will wait for summer to do the vinyl and painting. We've put sealant on the gib to protect it.
Its meant to snow down to 200m today. The girls want it to snow. I've planned a pyjama day tomorrow too. Next week will be a scrapbook day. I'll think of a couple of other things we can do. We're going up to Hanmer Springs on Monday. We're all looking forward to that...mmm those lovely hot pools. We haven't got a bath in this place.
Well I shall go and get some lunch now.